"everything feels brighter" (NRR165), by apologist

"everything feels brighter" (NRR165)

by apologist

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Dawid Kowalski I often repeat that there exist albums that are too good to be reviewed, as they are too personal, emotionally charged and simply too beautiful. I've been following Apologist since her early days, and she keeps getting better. Please listen to "Everything Feels Brighter" after studying the liner notes; they explain a lot. Exceptional.

PadraigC A multi- layered
electro/ambient release with
lots of atmospheric field
recordings and samples.
Made all the more poignant
and moving by the heart-felt
release notes - one chapter
ends another begins!....
Favorite track: skin like ghosts.

fm'latghore this is definitely one of my favorite ambient albums

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	1.	distance 05:32
	2.	bells ringing, bells tolling 02:38
	3.	bare bulb 05:34
	4.	thought i knew 04:59
	5.	anything you want 03:20
	6.	skin like ghosts 03:16
	7.	above the cloud 04:15
	8.	never try 03:12
	9.	greenie 02:43
	10.	the death i know 03:32
	11.	my day will come 05:34

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i have recently talked myself into believing in heaven- or at least- believing that the last time i saw the dead isn’t the last time i’ll see them- or at least- imagining myself on a subway platform watching the doors close on the first half of my adult life and believing that it’s hurtling forward to somewhere else, and not to nowhere.

this year, i celebrated 10 years off of heroin. this week, i will get married. this year i lost 3 people, each critical facets of my life- divided from me now by the line i am creating in my life and the line between this world and the next.

i wanted to write an album about what it felt like to be in my mid thirties, what i felt i lost and what i felt i gained. then, these people died and i realized i was really writing an album about them, saying goodbye to them.

when i was living amongst my dead, i could never have imagined myself surviving so many years beyond my addiction. yet now i find myself afloat, if sometimes unsteadily- staring down a future that looks potentially bright and beautiful and maybe even long.

recorded over the last year using tape, synthesizer, computer, field recordings, samples of long passed baseball games, nuclear tests, septa rides.

“everything feels brighter” is me waving sadly at a passing ship, it is me poking at the membrane between my present and my past, it is me staring clear eyed and hopeful at the biggest moon i’ve ever seen hanging over the gentlest ocean, it is the fondest farewell to my old and departed friends, it is my promise to live and keep living. a promise that i will one day see them all again, on the other side.

-r.a.e., may 2023

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